I appreciate it. ( he reached out to touch matt's knee gently. ) I really do. I know it's. It can probably be hard sometimes. Er. In both senses of the phrase, I guess, but. But it really does mean so much to me, how much you care about my comfort.
( withdrawing his hand, he scrubbed his face a bit before continuing, ) You're. So much I didn't expect. Something that. Surprised me, and. Overwhelmed me, and. God, you mean so much to me now, I. Can't even imagine a life without you in it in some way.
There's a greater part of me that's starting to feel comfortable with the idea. Being with a guy. Like in the proper way and not just. Well, trying to figure things out, which obviously we're already well past that stage anyway, but we didn't really talk about it either, so. So that's not something that feels strange anymore, but.
( he took a slow breath and sighed. )
God, I feel awful needing to say this, but I. We can't really. Do. The public thing. Because of what I do. It's. I'd be drawing an arrow on your doorstep for my enemies. And. And they're much more devastating and cruel than even the Kingpin.
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( withdrawing his hand, he scrubbed his face a bit before continuing, ) You're. So much I didn't expect. Something that. Surprised me, and. Overwhelmed me, and. God, you mean so much to me now, I. Can't even imagine a life without you in it in some way.
There's a greater part of me that's starting to feel comfortable with the idea. Being with a guy. Like in the proper way and not just. Well, trying to figure things out, which obviously we're already well past that stage anyway, but we didn't really talk about it either, so. So that's not something that feels strange anymore, but.
( he took a slow breath and sighed. )
God, I feel awful needing to say this, but I. We can't really. Do. The public thing. Because of what I do. It's. I'd be drawing an arrow on your doorstep for my enemies. And. And they're much more devastating and cruel than even the Kingpin.