( watching for a little while, bucky nodded after a moment, agreement. )
I missed you so much. So. So much.
None of that had anything to do with sex, though.
( the fear matt faced seemed to clarify with his earlier words, and for bucky, there would be no way he would have let sex determine anything about it. he'd been so ready to leave sex behind altogether before that having it again was just as shocking as being wanted at all, for love or sex.
and in the end, even without the physicality, matthew cared, tried to understand. more than anyone else ever had. that along was worth more than anything anyone else could give. not to mention their disabilities also brought a shared sense of understanding, the way their humor aligned, their interests, their struggles. )
Even if we never had sex again, I. I wouldn't just leave you. I couldn't, for just that. It's. Unthinkable. To me.
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I missed you so much. So. So much.
None of that had anything to do with sex, though.
( the fear matt faced seemed to clarify with his earlier words, and for bucky, there would be no way he would have let sex determine anything about it. he'd been so ready to leave sex behind altogether before that having it again was just as shocking as being wanted at all, for love or sex.
and in the end, even without the physicality, matthew cared, tried to understand. more than anyone else ever had. that along was worth more than anything anyone else could give. not to mention their disabilities also brought a shared sense of understanding, the way their humor aligned, their interests, their struggles. )
Even if we never had sex again, I. I wouldn't just leave you. I couldn't, for just that. It's. Unthinkable. To me.